I would like to stop posting every day but I can't yet

Today I made the mistake of not only writing about a book I read, but also trying to make an insightful point about it and tie it into broader cultural events. With the limited amount of time I have to write, I definitely can't finish a post like this in a single day. Not a good one, anyway. I need time to think about what I'm saying, make sure I'm communicating effectively, and put a nice bow on it. While Blaugust is good for encouraging me to write every day, it discourages thoughtful writing. Because I have to get everything out before the stroke of midnight, because those are the rules.

I've definitely made posts this month that I think are failures, but might've been better if I gave myself more time to work on and polish them. My post about country music I feel could've been more convincing. Yesterday's post about Android and ads was kind of the bare minimum. My post about the fictional VHS format ends kind of abruptly. (Maybe that was the right call, though. I feel like anything else I could add would've been redundant.)

I don't regret doing Blaugust, because "I can in fact write every day" is a valuable thing to know, but also a valuable thing to know is "I can and sometimes should work on something for multiple days". This is something I almost never did before I was adequately treated for ADHD: Other than a few abortive attempts at short stories, I don't think I ever made anything that took multiple days, or did multiple edit passes on anything. This was partly out of self-loathing; in the cold harsh light of a new day, nothing I did seemed good enough to be worth continuing. But it was also just my brain being unable to latch on to anything. It just didn't want to keep thinking about a single thing for that long.

I realize that I now have this ability, and that's a pretty big deal. I'm still not good at it--I desperately need to figure out how to keep the momentum going with longer-term projects with the limited time I have--but the fact that I can do it at all is a gift. Blaugust would've been much easier in previous years, because the idea of writing a single thing over multiple days simply wouldn't have occurred to me. Now, I'm frustrated because the artificial limitation I'm forcing on myself for this event is preventing that kind of effort. Once this is over, I need to learn how to harness this energy and work on a proper long-term project. I've been doing one-offs for far too long.